Quietly, quietly see the way you are sleeping.
Please believe me that this is the hardest decision in my life.
If I never say I will leave you one day.
You keep thinking that I will be still yours.

I left you with this last letter.
From now on, I must start to think for myself.
Everything that I have sacrificed, I never say it's a waste.
The me now have a clam heart.

I love you although I have given up,
Sadness must stop,
Hearts parted,
It cannot be made clear with just one sentence.

If it's not you that doesn't know how to treasure,
it wouldn't be this kind of ending.
I really never blame you because
This is my own decision.


A person must walk how far.
must come across how many injuries then will be tired.
What kind of place is home?
Stayed behind because of who?
A person must think for how long?
must go through how many mistakes then will know.
Never let tears roll down easily again,
Never easily say this lifetime no regrets, Oath to do with my life,
Given up everything because of who?
I am not myself anymore.

Don't ask me about my injuries and pain.
Don't ask whether my heart is bleeding.
Don't ask whether my heart is broken.
Don't ask whether am I drunk.

Don't ask me about my plight and sadness.
Don't ask whether wondering in the streets are tiring.
Don't ask whether I still have tears.
Don't ask whether my dreams are correct.
And also don't ask me would I follow my dreams.

I have worked in Tampines for a week. It's was stressful in the sense that we have to clear every cheques in that day itself. But at least better than working in the law firm because i don't have to think anything about work after i knock off. Some unhappy stuffs happened on Christmas Eve. All i can say is Be Strong. Take it as a learning experience and don't blame anyone for it including yourself. Went out on New Year Eve with some brothers. Went to old supreme court building to watch fireworks. After which, some went home and the rest went to changi to have supper. After supper and we made our way home. Reached home around 5am. Just now woke up, have lunch and had a good chat with Judy on the phone and here i am blogging. Don't know what to do and where to go later. My life seems to be empty after i made everything clear to her. I am LOST..... I am trying hard to forget her... Anyway, Happy New Year everyone. OUT.

After I came back from Batam, I am just too busy and too lazy to blog. I totally couldn't remember what has happened for the past month so this will be a short post. A lot of happy and unhappy things happened. I didn't really enjoy my birthday this year and I don't want to mention what has happened as everything has passed. Currently looking forward to tomorrow. Release of results. It will determine my mood for Christmas and New Year. Anyway, went for job training yesterday at Toa Payoh. Will be getting down to sign the 3 months contract later and starting work tomorrow at Tampines. Hopefully everything went well. Will try to update as soon as possible. OUT.

吃不能吃 睡不能睡
沒有了你 全都不對
我都學不會 把愛敷衍
用笑容來把眼淚催眠

笑不能笑 哭不敢哭
人不像人 鬼不像鬼
朋友都說這 不過失戀
但我卻連呼吸都膽怯

能不能不愛了 因為愛太痛了
我痛得快死了 卻無法把你忘了
能不能不愛了 愛情它太痛了
我痛得快死了 卻無法把愛割舍

外面下着雨
犹如我心血在滴
爱你那么久
其实算算不容易就要分东西
明天不再有关系
留在家里的衣服
有空再来拿回去不去想爱都结了果
舍不得拼命找借口
不勉强你再为了我
心不在留不准是痛我可以抱你吗爱人
让我在你肩膀哭泣
如果今天我们就要分离
让我痛快地哭出声音我可以抱你吗爱人
容我最后一次这样叫你
你也不得已
我会笑笑地离去

To my wen wen:

也曾追求也曾失落
不再有梦是你为我
推开天窗打开心锁
让希望又转动
忙碌奔波偶而迷惑
为了什么是你给我
一份感动一个理由
不疲倦不脆弱
这世界的永恒不多
让我们也成为一种
情深如海不移如山
用一生爱不完
我的爱一天比一天更热烈
要给你多些再多些不停歇
让你的生命只有甜和美 oh oh
遗忘该怎么流浪
我的爱一天比一天更热烈(还要坚决)
要给你多些再多些不停歇(然后再多一些)
让恋人钟爱的每一句誓言 oh oh
不再难追全都实现

别走开
给我一个时间对你说爱
手触着心缓缓呼吸
深深地
感觉心在说我爱你
哦宝贝
给我一个时间对你说爱
用我的心化做星星
填满你寂寞的夜里
从来不曾有过这样的感觉
迫切渴望拥有每一个永远
就让转动的世界停留在眼前
让我对你说对你说
我是真的付出我的爱
从今以后不会再更改
哦
让我拥有你到未来
我是真的付出我的爱
从今以后就不会再更改
让我拥有你全部的爱

Realise that when i am back in singapore. I am lazy to update my blog.

A short update here.

On thursday, the presentation went well in the morning and in the afternoon, went to collect payment from one company and wait for knock off time. Ary couldn't make it for lunch so went with Jordon. Luckily he was around to order for me. If not, i had a communication barrier with the vendors. Ary and Fitra went to hotel to find us as a farewell party. Went to play pool there but the pool table is chui.

On friday, went to office to prepare some training materials and that's it. Went for lunch with boss as he is treating us lunch as our farewell lunch. After lunch, went back to hotel for check out and to chomp chomp to have goreng pisang and grass jelly and went back to hotel to collect our barang barang and to ferry terminal. Ary send us there and bid us farewell. He got lots of work to do but he is instructed by boss so he got no choice. He was busy cos he is now admin, finance and marketing executive. Haha. 1 person in 3 department. He was so call promoted and waiting for new marketing executive to come in. Took the ferry and back to singapore. Xiang and Xiu came and fetch me and we went to have dinner. Wen is sick but now she is ok liao. Haha. After that, went back to Hougang to slack and xian came along. Went home unpack things and went to catch up with Yang.

On Saturday, woke up and went to collect Singapore Buddhist Lodge Bursary. After that, went to meet Kevin and Xiang. After that, went home to meet insurance agent to sign some documents and went to play pool. Xiu and Xian came along. After that, went back HG and slack a while and went back home.

Yesterday, woke up and slack a while with Yang, BH, Eva and Nic. Went home to do report and then to SN4 to celebrate Nic birthday. Played water bomb and went to tre's house to cook dinner and have dinner. Went home at 1.30am and continue to do report and went to bed after that.

Today, woke up and went to school. All teachers stressing us on projects submission already. And Final Exams are coming. Will be busy from now on. Got to Endure through all this and i will be Graduate from this course.

Wen, Love you lots.